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[May. 5th, 2009|01:57 pm] |
I just created an excel of the concerts I want to see. I'm such a nerd. The end.
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[Apr. 16th, 2009|09:18 am] |
In the past few weeks, my thirst for knowledge has been entirely rejuvenated in a great way. Everything is catching my eye. New philosophy, sociology, more obscure writings on distopia, graphic novels, poetry. I feel like I've discovered my own personal renaissance.
Additionally, I'm working my way through the imdb top 100 movies so in the past week I've been watching movies like Shawshank Redemption, Casablanca, Double Indemnity, Some like it hot, 1984. Win.
I've just been restaffed on an awesome project for the next 3 weeks. Its a high risk; high reward type where its sponsored by a number of companies across industries and my answer could have an effect on almost every American and a lot of people globally. Very high profile. Very intense. Very cool.
Unfortunately, that + last project I'm still finishing up + the fact I'm taking my GMATs in 2 and a half weeks and have 35 hours of class for that + the pro-bono work I'm doing on the side isn't really allowing my renaissance to come to full fruition.
I wish I was independently wealthy and could just take 6 months off and consume all of the knowledge that's waiting for me. I doubt, however, that 6 months would be enough. Of maybe have a job where I work less than 80 hrs a week. You know.
Since I decided I'd be leaving the firm by October at the latest, my whole perspective has changed on that front. I'm saying no a whole lot more and no longer sacrifices my personal future for the firm. I might not make a whole lot of friends in the next few months, but I'm okay with that. I gave McK a whole lot of my over the last year and a half and for this time I'm going to not feel guilty for taking. Well, I'm going to try. :)
I visited Harvard B-school a little bit ago. I really wanted to hate it because, you know, its Harvard. The teaching style of the business school however, and the fact that there isn't really grades so no one's actually cuttthroat was incredibly surprising. At the business school, you don't have 5 classes that meet every week at X and Y time. Instead you have class at X and Y time and the classes are all integrated and happen at different frequencies throughout the semester. For example, at the beginning you'll have a lot of accounting during that time because you need it for the basics and towards the end you'll barely ever have an accounting class instead you'll have lots of marketing and strategy courses. Also, no real textbooks. Everything is case studies and discussion based; They say specifically they not looking for you to memorize, they're looking for you to understand and develop good decision making skills. Very me.
Also, I've been looking at a masters in higher Ed @ Oxford which would be great since I never got to go abroad and its higher ED and hello, its Oxford.
If I can get my testing and recommendations in order, I'll probably apply in the fall along with the PhD program at Stanford. I have no expectation to get in anywhere the first time especially since given the current economic climate, many people are heading back to school so competition is at an all-time high.
That's really it for now. I have Bo on my lap purring. I keep telling him he's awesome since the President named his dog after him. I don't think he really cares.
Love for you all,
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[Mar. 27th, 2009|12:22 pm] |
I got a good cry stuck in me. Any movie suggestions to get it going??
Love for you all. This has been a month. |
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[Mar. 10th, 2009|10:02 am] |
Airborne Toxic Event in Westchester last night. That was a great concert.
My life makes me laugh.
LOVE! |
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[Feb. 15th, 2009|08:39 am] |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2009|05:53 pm] |
Am posting from the airport because my flight was delayed 4 hrs. No good. I'm luckier than most now because most of the people on my flight are consultants and business people on the way home for the week and are missing their connection and have to stay in denver for the night.
Last night was a good night.
I had the craziest day but somehow I got it all done. Well, except for my laundry.
Love for you all! I'm going to grab a drink... |
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[Jan. 17th, 2009|10:14 am] |
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rewrite of plan for next few weeks.
this weekend- mikel and roshan are getting her in a couple hours to adventure.
DC maybe.. inaugural ball is still a maybe. Thank god I already have a dress. :)
Denver on Thursday! :)
Tampa on Sunday for the week and then the next week either staying in tampa for the super bowl or have rented a house with work people in the poconos.
I'm thinking that I want to go to New Orleans next because I've been meaning to for a while so maybe New Orleans for the next few months.
And at some point Zoe's finally moving in! Love it.
Love for you all,
Emily |
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| isn't it amazing how addictive bagel crisps are...? |
[Jan. 13th, 2009|09:24 pm] |
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15K raise. win.
Awesome pilates class. win.
Local hot apple cider. win.
last weekend in mountains. win.
Bo pushing my guitar off my entertainment center. lose.
6 pack peeking through. win.
being in tampa for the super bowl. double win.
This vacation has centered me and been wonderful. But, it also makes me wish I was the person who could quit their job and wander the world for a few years. who knows... maybe when I go backpacking across SE Asia next January, I just won't come back.
Love like a mofowhoa,
Emily |
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[Jan. 8th, 2009|10:56 pm] |
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Jury Duty, Adironacks with Rzack & Co for the weekend, Kitzbuhel Austria for the week, Mikel ( and maybe Zoe!) next weekend, Poconos the following week with Julia and my work peeps.
Asia for 5 months?
Life is wicked crazy and I LOVE IT.
I love you all too. The end. :) |
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| Since I've been reflecting anyway... :) |
[Dec. 30th, 2008|10:28 pm] |
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1. What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Graduated, got a job, got written up in a business journal, lived in my apt on my own, achieved "status" on planes, trains and hotels, took a nyc subway... a million things... this year was a year of change.
2. Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I have no idea what mine were, but I'm good with how I led my life and hope for more of the same
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Yes
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Yes
5. What countries did you visit?
Bahamas, I'd say Puerto Rico but I'm not sure that counts
6. What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
More solid friend-base with few exes
7. What dates from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
Jan 1st, July 4th, August 18th, Nov 4th
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
I should say my job or something, but truly it was my growing faith in myself, confidence being single, my new approach to the people around me, and really embracing who I am. It was a year of incredible personal growth.
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not standing up for myself at work/asking for help when I needed it when everything went crazy
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Yes. Right now actually. :)
11. What was the best thing you bought?
my bed
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
So many of my friends and co-workers
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
other co-workers, my past
14. Where did most of your money go?
rent, concert tickets, clothes... wish more had gone to travel.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
working for a university, sundays with my core, my wifey for Thanksgiving,
16. What songs will always remind you of 2008?
"The Way I Am" Ingrid Michaelson, "Come On, Get Higher" Matt Nathanson, "Into the ground" the brakes "mouthwash" Kate Nash, "Yea Yeah" Matt & Kim, "low" Flo Rida, "fall" Kepano Green, "where we gonna go from here" mat kearner, "life is short" butterfly boucher,
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? Less happy and less sad, more at peace.
ii. thinner or fatter? Thinner
iii. richer or poorer? Richer
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Taking time for me... I wish I had figured things out sooner. TRAVELLING!! Making time for my people, recording my music...
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Let everything get the best of me... pretty much it.
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
Spent it with the fam in CT
21. How will you be spending New Years Eve?
I was supposed to be in Colorado but given my chest x-rays I think that its going to be in CT with my parents. Final confirmation tomorrow.... Not a winner.
22. Did you fall in love in 2008?
Loved a lot... in's a different story
23. How many one-night stands?
Too many
24. What was your favorite TV program?
Big Bang Theory, Boston Legal,
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yes. For the first time in my life, I'll admit to hating a person.
26. What was the best book you read?
Middlesex...maybe? I did not read enough this year. That's something I should've done more of.
27. What were your greatest musical discoveries?
The Brakes
28. What did you want and get?
my job, most of the things I got I didn't know to want but I needed more than anything
29. What did you want and not get?
Security, a happy ending
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
Curious Case of Benjamin Button, though Wanted is a close second just for the entire evening.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
22. At work we rented out the wine cellar of a vineyard in North Carolina and had a party. My actual birthday, I have no idea.
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A different August 18th
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
business
34. What kept you sane?
Meganamanda, john morris, Cfrithsen, my wifey, brunches with Julia and Cat, ton-ton, my boys
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
hugh jackman
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
prop 8 and arkansas banning adoption for unmarried people, Israel/Palestine,
37. Who did you miss?
My fam, so many of my friends,
38. Who was the best new person you met?
most important to my year? john morris, best person? ashley hartt
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
Its okay to not be okay, Better to honest sooner rather than later especially if the truth hurts, its okay to not be friends with my exes
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Oh I am young but I have a past
Travelled far to find the start
Yes I am scared and I've been burnt
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| Guess its my turn? |
[Dec. 14th, 2008|10:45 pm] |
10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now (don't list names):
01. I mean every word I said.
02. I am happy that you're happy, except when I'm not.
03. Grow. up.
04. I don't know why you stayed but I'm glad you did.
05. I know your secret and its okay, but the answer's no.
06. You're in my head all the time. I haven't really told anyone because I know they wouldn't understand. I don't think I understand.
07. I love you. I love you. I love you.
08. I won't ever forgive you and I'm totally okay with that. (I guess I can hold a grudge)
09. I miss you every day. In my head, you're still my friend and I've always got your back.
10. You are one of the most beautiful people in the world. For reals. Like whoa.
Nine things about yourself:
01. I'm so deadline oriented, its ridiculous.
02. I've been cutting the bullshit out of my life for the last few weeks. It feels great.
03. I love my boys to a redic level.
04. I want to settle down and get married, but I'm not willing to settle.
05. I truly love my job and am so scared I'm going to lose it
06. I am counting down till both this January and next January
07. Sometimes, I judge people too quickly
08. I'm really and truly single right now and its awesome. I actually mean that. I never thought I would.
09. I love taking vitamins. It makes me think I'm healthy, though I know it just makes expensive pee. :)
Eight ways to win your heart:
01. take care of me when I don't let you
02. show up
03. make me laugh
04. COOK
05. share your music with me
06. respect my family even when I don't
07. be direct with me.
08. do something I can't do
Seven things that cross your mind a lot:
01. I need to clean
02. C'est la vie
03. August 18, 2008
04. my mental checklist
05. I need to get new clothes.
06. I need a vacation
07. I don't see it.
Six things you wish you had never done:
01. nothing
02.
03.
04.
05.
06.
Five turn-offs:
01. passive aggressiveness.
02. overwhelming selfishness
03. liberals who condemn conservatives for condemning them and visa-versa
04. general lack of respect for people and things
05. lack of self or personal desire
Four turn-ons:
01. humor
02. intelligence and curiosity about the world
03. self-confidence
04. people who do things I can't - personal drive
Three smileys that describe your life:
01. :)
02. :/
03. =)
Two things you want to do before you die:
01. be a mom.
02. change as many lives as possible for the better
One confession:
I have an overwhelming need to make sure that my life is fairly stable and its headed in a direction. I wish I could be one of those people who let go of everything and did whatever even for a short time. I hope someday I will get comfortable enough in what I have that I know if I leave there will be something waiting for me when I get back. I doubt that day will ever come. I pretend it will. |
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[Apr. 21st, 2008|04:55 pm] |
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[Sep. 14th, 2007|04:40 pm] |
So surgery went well. My foot still doesn't have all the feeling back in it and it hurts lots and crutches while trying to finish your last semester with college with 5 classes and trying to find a job is not a winner.
BUT
life is good.
As I'm moving on in my life I'm realizing how many people I've lost touch with, who, I really didn't want to lose touch with. One of my big goals is to reconnect. The other is to finally lay everything to rest here, give the apologies that are owed, the praise where its due, and work my butt off to make sure I rock it all to the end. I really wish that I could've had one last season of rugby but I guess that wasn't in the cards.
I may try to keep this up. I've run out of house and ugly betty to watch so its really this or homework. which I def should be doing. Any philly people who need to do good work I'm going to start trying to organize MWF mornings and weekend days to go to coffee shops whether it be milkboy (free wifi what?) or somewhere in the city and I'd love any/all who'd want to run away.
I'm also looking for hookah buddies, shore buddies, hooligan buddies, just gen adventurers who want to play. Also if anyone doesn't know what they're doing from march to may of next year, come backpack with me next spring.
Love for you all. Shopping with steph now. |
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[Aug. 26th, 2007|11:14 am] |
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I'm scared for my surgery. |
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[Apr. 13th, 2007|01:51 am] |
Laurel James is a winner.
So is dalton.
I need to do my work now. The end. |
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| The very needed update |
[Apr. 8th, 2007|02:09 pm] |
As for an update to my life. I'm happy with most everything except school. The break down?
1) Rugby: Last spring I thought I'd never feel welcome on the pitch again. So much had happened and I no longer felt part of the team. I think I'm finally finding my place again. Not everyone's going to love me and I know that but I've got friends and I know in the end its all going to be okay. I think that my general mantra to life right now. But to those who reached out? Thanks.
2) Keys: I took a little time off at the beginning of the semester when I was over-whelmed with hell week and it was the best decision I could've made. I came back with a new perspective and things that used to matter so much, I'm realizing don't matter at all. One of my biggest disappointments with the group is that I used to feel like almost no one knew me. I think that I came back ready to have fun, over the bullshit of the past, and just doing my thing. I'm just such an awkward person that I used to be scared to be me. Now I'm speaking up when I feel something and letting myself be a person more than I ever did before.
Also I got a new solo. The Hotel Song by Regina Spector. After Mouth my rents were waiting for me to sing something that they can be proud of and show off. Since I'm singing about cocaine in this one, I don't think that's going to happen. Maybe for my senior solo?
3) Traditions: 3 down. 1 to go. Worried about May Day. It feels like all of the pieces are there, I just have to get them all together and there are so many, that I'm overwhelmed. Tonight my wife (oh how I love her) and I going to work out the schedule and make final decisions. Whatever happens, I hope you all have fun. The end of that.
4) Work: Still working at Admissions and for the math department. Admissions is good although I get frustrated from time to time. I’m on the Advisory Council this year which means I get to read apps and help with publications and such. That’s a winner. My math jobs bored me and so I’ve lost interest in it. I don’t think that I’m going to try for another math job in the fall.
5) Academics: Here’s the discontent. Traditions put me behind and I’m having a hard time catching up and getting work done. I’m literally spending every weekend doing homework in my room. Plus, through a bad series of events my rents pushed me to take this math class at Penn. It ended up being a grad class that I most definitely do not have the pre-requisites for and that has been a disaster. In addition, every time I talk to my rents they stress me out about grades and graduating early, which is a big thing that I’m thinking about and will probably make its own post.
6) Love life—Something I never say much about but I’ll say this. Yes and I’m happy. The end.
7) Friends—through a combination of being in a relationship, my friends being in relationships and school eating my soul, I’ve been missing out on everything. I miss you all so much and I’m hoping to get some more time with all of you soon. I’m sorry to those of you I’ve let down and believe me I miss you probably so much more than you miss me. My life is just really lame right now as a result of the stress.
8) Family: I don’t know. I just don’t know. Things aren’t good. My brother isn’t working. My parents are stressed and crazy and I don’t like going home even though I’ve been missing everyone so much lately (especially today, Happy Easter everyone). I’m tired of being an outsider. Everyone just thinks of me as this quiet overachiever and that most definitely is NOT who I am. I’m tired of lying. I’m so tired of lying. Right now I’m caught between wishing I could go home and feel safe and knowing that when I’m there I’m so unsafe that I don’t want to go back again for a long, long time.
9) Other:
a) Did a leadership training of trainers program so now I actually can lead workshops. Met lots of cool people and really saw this community from a really fresh perspective.
b) Am in the midst of applying for a leadership training workshop at the end of next august. Did it last year and loved it. Am excited that I might have the chance to do it again.
c) Am nervous about the number of all-nighters that I think that I’m going to have to pull this week. Not a winner.
d) Am working at explo again this summer as well as taking a class or two at UConn/URI
e) Lost medical insurance from Jan-Mar. That sucked.
f) Have some health issues that I’ve got to work through and am avoiding as per usual. Figure they’ll get worked out sometime in late May/Early June.
g) my motivation’s at an all-time low. If anyone ever wants to homework. Please please please bring me with you.
h) As a result of the lack of motivation, have been watching more TV in the last 3 weeks then I did in the last three years methinks. Oy. |
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| because homework means getting up to date on LJ and posting random meme's |
[Apr. 8th, 2007|12:45 pm] |
one-word meme!
1. Where is your cell phone? covered
2. Describe your boyfriend/girlfriend/S.O.? awe-inspiring
3. Your hair? dirty
4. Your mother? crazy
5. Your father? hero
6. Your favorite item? phone
7. Your dream last night? disturbing
8. Your favorite drink? water
9. Your dream car? hybrid
10. The room you are in? mine
11. Your ex? friend(s)
12. Your fear? failure
13. What do you want to be in 10 years? entertained
14. Who did you hang out with last night? kat
15. What you're not? motivated
16. The last thing you did? eat
17. What are you wearing? man-pants
18. Your favorite book? giver
19. The last thing you ate? rice
20. Your life? precious
21. Your mood? quiet
22. Your friends? winners
23. What are you thinking about right now? homework
24. Your car? baby
25. What are you doing at the moment? drinking
26. Your summer? adventures
27. Your relationship status? content
28. What is on your tv? movies
29. When is the last time you laughed? laci
30. Last time you cried? naahh
31. School? intense
(Sidenote- I sprayed this perfume my mom bought me and its giving me a headache-- not a winner) |
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[Dec. 11th, 2006|02:09 am] |
The cracked outness of me loves all of you.
I have most def lost my mind.
I think I like it this way.
Finals week has barely started and I'm already gone.... This has got to be a new record. |
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[Oct. 29th, 2006|10:32 pm] |
Lantern Night.
I wish I could express how happy I am. But, I haven't slept enough to speak English at this point.
I love my life.
I love you all.
Night. |
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[Aug. 28th, 2006|11:07 am] |
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Because I did this last semester and even though a lot of it didn't happen, I'm hoping it'll focus me.
For Me
Goals for my Junior Fall Semester
going on adventures with my friends
running away and homeworking at coffee shops in the city
traditions, traditions, traditions, traditions
walks with my wifey, solen, kate stein, laci, and anyone else who wants to.
passing french
actuarial exams and possibly online courses
being a good upperclasswoman on my hall
sleeping a solid 8 hrs 3 nights a week at least
finding at least 2 good pairs of sweatpants
finding a good winter internship so I don't feel guilty if I go back to Explo next summer.
going to office hours for once on my own
making new study buddy
doing my hw
appointments
get back in shape
rugby
go to a party and let there be no drama
talk to who I want to talk to
going home and seeing my family
visiting sarah at Muhlenburg, Chris @ Lehigh, Jenn in NJ and Jillian @ UVA
meeting new froshies and watching them fall in love
finally finishing Catch-22
new leather jacket
taking more pictures
spending even more times with my friends
working and loving it
not messing up my math job
meeting new people
love life at Bryn Mawr once again.
DOING WHAT I WANT TO DO WHEN I WANT TO DO IT.
yeah, just being good to me.
This year is going to rock. Hell's yeah.
Taco Bell now because I don't think that Gobstoppers were meant to be one's primary source of food.
Love! |
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